All walled up
I can taste the winter
I would shut up if I thought that it mattered
That's what it feels like
When you're stitched into this skin
I feel stuck!
And no one thinks something's missing
Something's missing!

No one cares
No one listens
Screaming words that you fake hearing
No one cares
No one listens anymore

My eyes burn
As I bury how I'm feeling
Close my eyes
It's my life that I've been stealing
If it's all right, why do I feel a sense of longing?
I had it all!
And yet I thought that something's missing
Something's missing!

No one cares
No one listens
Screaming words that you fake hearing
No one cares
No one listens anymore

No one cares
No one listens
Screaming words that you fake hearing
No one cares
No one listens anymore

So paranoid, I've been hiding from the sun
I'm tired of being afraid of everything and everyone
I'm so tired!

No one cares
No one listens
Screaming words that you fake hearing
No one cares
No one listens anymore

No one cares
No one listens
Screaming words that you fake hearing
No one cares
No one listens anymore

No one cares
No one listens
Screaming words that you fake hearing
No one cares
No one listens anymore

.....

why do i have to fall in love with you? why do i have to care for you to much till when i see ur picture and remembering it make me cry ... why just can't i erase everything just like that, ahhh fuck it. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck..... i just hope that u can someone else that make you happy, care and love you better than i am, that you want to be beside them all day long and misses them always. goodluck ...

for someone

i know i said i won't let u go. but now i let u go. but i can't forget about you. you the woman i fall in love you the girl that important to me. your special. but that my feeling i have to think about your feeling. not just me.



aku sangat sayang arah kau.. aku banar2 sayang kan kau. serious.. but think of me what ever u want but just so u know i love u so much. cinta tak harus memiliki .....

Ber mula nya dari kesalah fahaman... hingga begini. what am i saying....

:)

so hows life? Been great :3 AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

:) all i can do is just smile even tho it hurt, i just can laugh it all but its still not enough to hide it. :')

romance - ku ingin kamu :)

demi semua yang aku jalani bersamamu
kuingin kau jadi milikku
kuingin kau disampingku
tanpa dirimu ku hanya manusia tanpa cinta
dan hanya dirimu yang bisa
membawa surga dalam hatiku
ref:
kuingin engkau menjadi milikku
aku akan mencintaimu
menjagamu selama hidupku
dan aku kan berjanji
hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
ku akan setia disini
menemani…
sentuhanmu
bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta
yang berhiaskan bunga asmara
dan membuatku tak kuasa
back to ref
di setiap arung gerak
tersimpan di hati kecilku
bahwa dirimu terindah untukku
back to ref
ref2:
selama ku masih bisa bertahan
selama ku masih bisa bernapas
selama Tuhan masih mengijinkan
kuingin selalu menjagamu
back to ref2 [3x]
selama ku masih bisa bertahan
selama ku masih bisa bernapas

:)

hahahahahahaha, fuck mcm2 asi2 ku ne :) rupa nya yg ku bca atu slh, bek tah buta tah x eh :p ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

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fuck!

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There not much for me to say here. well this past few day, i'm really sick plus flu. i don't really like it. make my stomach hurt -.- btw i dream of her, in my dream i'm with her, we were shopping :) then i wake up because my mother call. ahahaha :)

Yesterday it was a great day for me so far. Yeah for me it was. i miss that kind of situation. i'm just a simple guy that happy with little thing only because i really miss talking to her. i love her so much :) i really do love her so much.

Today is our 4th monthsary. Yeah :), it been 4 month already. I love her so much. I really do love her eventho..... But its ok :)

:).

what am i? I don't know anymore. sometime i feel reaching for a ghost and never get it. I been trying so hard for my hand reach for you and think that it will never grab. Why just i can't throw all the negative thought. But why all this time my heart just want you, my heart ache when i feel jealous, my heart ache when you treat me differently from him.

:)

Just smile to hide it but the real thing sometimes i can feel it, i don't know. When i have a feeling, i know it's true but sometime i just don't care about it.

:)

i'm starting bloging 2 year ago, now i start to write it again after hiatus for so long.

Now my life filled with drama. There some happiness, downess, sadness, crying and a whole lot of emotion. But above all that emotion or hurtness, she my important person. I love her so damn much. But she don't have the same feeling of me. In two day, its our 5 monthsary. I think more positive. For now i ignore the feeling of jealousy and painfull, i hide it with all my might.